Many people have asked me where I’ve been and what I’ve been up to, since my Instagram account and my Book Blog have basically stood still for a couple of weeks now.
To answer your burning question and tickle those curiosity nerves…See the picture? That’s me…all hippy and ready for more self-discovery and healing, learning and guidance. Hubby and I joined an Ayahuasca retreat on a beautiful farm. It was all cosy, since we were only about ten participants. We were yanked back to our roots as we set up tents in which we slept in for ten days. There was no hot water. Not that you needed a shower really, since the Dieta rules were, ‘No showering’, until the shaman says so. Food we were allowed to eat was extremely bland since no salt or any flavoring was allowed. And you basically could only eat small amounts for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Yes, we were all nice and smelly and reeked of fire smoke. BUT IT WAS AWESOME!!! If you would like to gain more knowledge about what the Dieta and Ayahuasca is all about, please research it for yourself as there are loads of info on these plant medicines. I don’t really want to go on about explaining the finer details as this post would be much too long and boring. However, I would love to share with you my experience… I’ve used Ayahuasca on a previous occasion with the same shaman we had this time around again. All I can tell you really is…it was SCARY and I DIED and HELL and CONFUSION and FEAR took over. But… it was all worth it. Seven hours of scary shit I endured over and over and over as if my mind was in a washing machine just simply tumbling and tumbling and tumbling and there is absolutely NO WAY of stopping it. The part where I died…YES…that is how it felt. To use more understandable terms, my Ego died and that is the part where the breakthrough and healing took place. Ancestral Amazonian tribal women sat all around me while wrapping my whole body in these huge Amazonian leaves. They cocooned my body while gently patting my back. Did this really happen…Yes, within another altered dimension of my understanding. They weren’t there in physical form, they could only enter my space as soon as I let go of my Ego and invite them in. The big message why they did this? They showed me and made me believe again, that I am worthy to be healed. I have the right to live within this experience. To learn and teach. To come back to this current trip. No, unfortunately FEAR took over this time. My Ego had me literally by my ‘cahoonas’, (since I’m a woman and not a man). Fear crippled me this time and I really was disappointed within myself. However, I did have the opportunity to receive personal healing from our shaman, Yawa Bane, whom by the way is absolutely amazing and loving. His energy simply booms out of him and affects you in such a way, whereas you have no other choice of just being yourself. Don’t try to hide. Don’t try to shy away or even be arrogant. This guy pulls out your core, shows it to you and then the choice is up to you…you going to continue your ways or start living a life of constant learning, awakening, evolving and expansion? I had Myocarditis which is inflammation of the heart due to my digestive tract being so out of whack the past few years. Doctors labelled me with all these fancy terms; Crohn's Disease, Diverticulitis, Celiac Disease etc. I’m basically gluten, diary and wheat intolerant. Most chemical medications don’t work for me as it flare’s up my stomach. Ultimately, this trip played a huge factor in our lives for physical healing to take place. As I’ve mentioned, I received 30 minutes of personal heart healing where the shaman would smoke his healing pipe, blow the smoke into my heart and into my crown chakra and then the ‘gunk’ will be energetically sucked out which he spits out into a bucket. No, he doesn’t literally suck out anything. This happens on an energetic level; however, he does spit out mucus with every inhalation and then blowing. It symbolizes the healing energy entering my physical body and as the smoke attach to all the illness within my body, it then gets sucked out with a shamanic prayer and he would then spit it out into the bucket. I’ll tell you… My heart felt much lighter afterwards and it’s now been almost a month since we’re home. After a recent follow-up from the doctors, my heart dysrhythmia has become significantly less. This beautiful physical heart of mine is on the road to recovery. My gut is more stable and less achy. Things are seriously looking good health wise. On our retreat, I did drink San Pedro. Oh, my oh my. I just LOVE Papa San Pedro. Again, please feel free to google and do some research on these plant medicines. They are truly healers which come straight from Mother Gaia. Now, Papa San Pedro has always been very gentle with me. It’s true as they say, this medicine has a masculine energy, but in such a way where you actually feel safe and protected. As if being in your Father’s arms whilst you are a young boy or girl. San Pedro is more of a physical healer. I drank a small amount since I’m extremely light-weight when it comes to plant medicines. It’s an overall buzz and warm feeling. It immediately started glowing within my whole body, all the sore parts literally started glowing as if a coal, but not in an uncomfortable sense. I just knew that San Pedro pinpointed all the yucky parts which needed healing, and so healing took place. My overall experience was absolutely fantastic and so worth it. Sometimes you really need to face uncomfortable spaces in which you can find yourself. Get to know yourself. See where you thrive and where work is needed. Once again, I have come to the realization that all is not as you perceive it to be in your reality. You are an experience within this human body and it’s up to you to gather as much information for your soul to absorb, in order for you to evolve and expand. It’s all about expanding our consciousness, but never ever forget to have fun within this experience we call life upon Earth.
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